Intro.
We’re so cool! Think about it, humans are incredible beings. Every other species on planet earth follows a very specific cycle which has been perfecting itself over thousands of years to keep itself alive. We on the other hand took ourselves out of the food chain. Non homo-sapiens survival depends entirely on a very delicate equilibrium of different interconnecting factors. Of course our survival also depends on some sort of repetitive patterns — eat, drink, get an education, get a job, create wealth, procreate, go vegan for a bit, go back and give multiple explanations why even though nobody asked, ever, — but they are all actions we make ourselves do and are only in part dictated by a natural cycle.
The situation we have created for ourselves could be considered perfect, maybe even utopian, yet we put ourselves through such misery. World wars, civil wars, religious wars, dictatorships, mass exterminations, mass shootings, race wars, exploitation, pollution, the bachelor I mean I could go on. We have so many reasons to hate each other. We have so many reasons to be mistrusting. We have so many reasons to be and stay divided.
Have you seen the Matrix? I won’t sit here and explain it to you because dude, seriously?! For the rest of us, remember the end of the third movie? When Neo finds and speaks to the architect of the simulation? The architect explains that humans had an ideal world that they simply couldn’t accept as reality. They would quickly awake and try to break away from their oppressors. We needed misery, chaos and confusion to stay plugged in. If the situation wasn’t a hot mess then we would have the time and ability to realize where freedom ends and complacency starts. If we take away the distractions created by anger, fear and misery we may just see a very different scene than the one we had in front of us just seconds before. This is that part of the movie where you realize how high you got and you’re not entirely sure why you feel so uneasy.
It’s my belief that all of us are on a metaphorical rowing boat. We struggle daily with the resistance of the oar against the water. The physical and psychological pain we undergo is huge. We are sad, confused and angry because we think we’re doing all the work alone. We’re so stuck in that pain that we cannot see that there is a person in front of us, behind us and beside us. We cannot see how they are struggling just as much as we are. If we took a break from rowing and looked around we would have an entirely different experience. That pain, that hatred, that anxiety would be replaced by questions. Where are we now? Where are we going? What am I rowing for? Who am I rowing for? Who are the people beside me, why and where are they rowing? After that, the pain we once felt becomes more an object of observation rather than the reason for our inevitable and immutable situation.
Once we take a look around us and we start to question the very structure of what we know as reality the fact that, for example, the lady at the counter was really rude to me affects us rather differently. Yes, she was rude, that’s a fact. But why was she rude? Was it something that happened just before she started work? Is it something bubbling up since childhood? Why are people rude? What is the definition of rude? When I’m experiencing something, anything from heartbreak to heartburn, I try to think back at what lead to this feeling in the first place. The main WH question here is why. I keep asking that until I reach a sort of mental precipice. A place where my mind tells me that she literally can’t go any further. I’ve been writing about this for months now. So here we are.
Yes, this is a blog. A weird one. If you continue reading you’ll realize that’s because by your standards that’s exactly what I am. So you already know you’ll be entertained!
Welcome to the congestion of weird as fuck thoughts that is my brain. I hope you have a blast!
